Wednesday, June 06, 2007

It's a circus in there

You know when you've been in a fight with someone? Well, after the fight, does it sometimes seem like you reserved most of the arguments for yourself? Your own head can get so crowded with a thousand different voices. Every two minutes one voice jumps up, declares something and then urges you to act on it before it's too late. Just as you reach for the phone another voice sidles over and explains how the previous voice is now wearing a straitjacket and locked in a padded cell, and how no one in their right minds would do what you were about to do. Instead--uh uh, says voice #3, don't listen to that silly twit, when's the last time you got sound advice from it? Voice #4 muses out loud that it saw voice #3 on America's Most Wanted the other night, something about conning old people out of their pensions... obviously nothing good is going to come out of listening to those who harm the elderly. Wouldn't it be a better idea to just--oh please, drawls #5, that would be a good idea if humiliating failure was the goal. Just listen to me...

Really, I wish I could use all that vicious incisiveness on others instead of reserving it for my poor overcrowded brain.

3 comments:

Hopeless Dreamer said...

wallahii..i have that feeling all the time…when i hung up the phone or walk away,i coluld almost kick myself thinking i should've said this or done that..i hate that feeling..!!!
what i've learned it..never act on that feeling..b/c u'll regret it..(like moii))!!! just wait a day or so..clear your head,,and talk it out with that person..when you are calm and rational.. Never in the same moment!!

Firefly said...

Euhip, lol, I know what you mean. I tend to do that too.

Anonymous said...

aw girl you wanna talk about? I am all ears you know ready to listen and all. :)